All These Thoughts - Original Ukulele

My new video!!

Jump and fall

The time is now
It's time to change but i don't know how
cause when i look to my past it screams
of all my lost hopes and broken dreams

One.
Three.
Eleven.

Times i've tried,
to understand what's happening inside
But theres a block in the road,
An infinite wall, and nobody knows

Eleven.
Eighteen.
Twenty-five.

Times i've jumped and fallen down,
Hands covered in dirt on the ground
I lay there still.
With no power of will, but

Twenty-five.
Forty.
One hundred.

Times i get up and go on
to face these days one by one.

Is that a miniature guitar?!

..yeah that would be my ukulele fools!

So i'm entering the Bushman World Ukulele Video Contest that starts in November and ends December 31st. Crazy, huh?!

I feel like it was just last week that i was watching Julia Nunes' video for this same exact contest. I saw it during my winter break freshman year and within a couple days i had figured out how to turn my guitar into an almost ukulele. That was almost 2 years ago! Then for my birthday this year right before Work Crew i got a real uke!!

Now i'm jammin' for reals :)

I get to pick 3 songs to sing for the contest. It's so flipping hard to decide!! But i think i might have one for sure decided. Suggestions are definitely welcome. (pretty please!)

It is going to be magical!

So i started writing letters

...to my future daughter. I know, it's possible that i won't even have a daughter, but i want to be prepared.

Is this weird? Most likely.

Necessary? Definitely.

I really want my daughter to know i love her. I want to be the supportive and loving mom i never had. Thats tough for me to say...

Now, i don't want to give all life's secrets and discoveries away, she's gotta figure most out by herself of course, but i want to give her at least a little guidance. And what if i'm not around for her when she is growing up? You never know what is going to happen in life, i could be gone, and i want her to have something from me.

So my plan is to write a series of letters, and give them to her once a month after she is 15 or 16 years old, cause we all know those are interesting years of your life ;)

That's all i guess, i don't even know if i will follow through with this, but i hope i will ♥

Hello, you. I love you! Love, God.

So sometimes (a lot of the time) i get a little frustrated because i can't "hear" God, or feel His presence in my life. I feel like i am really distant from Him. Ya ever feel that way? I do, all the time.

But then i wake up to see this beautiful sunrise.

It all comes flooding in. The realization that the God i follow is so much bigger than i could ever imagine. He is the best and most creative artist I could ever imagine. I am smiling as i type this cause it makes me so happy :) 

It's so easy to get caught up in the business of our lives, with school, work, friends, family, media, and everything else we have to deal with. But i think sometimes we just need to take a step back. Stop. See that every morning we wake up to God saying "Good morning, I love you so much!" He creates this magnificent painting in the sky every morning for us to see. I think that is a pretty clear message straight from the Big Man himself :)

And every evening, I see God's signature, the sunset!

So amazing, right? I think i could seriously just look at a sunset all day long. All of those colors swirled together and blended beautifully. Perfection. Again, God saying, "I love you so very much." He wants us to spend time with us everyday, and he shows his love for us through His beautiful creations. The sunrises, sunsets. mountains, clouds, everything. I can't resist that! His beauty is surrounding us completely. It's so cool to think that while God is painting beautiful sunsets here for me, he is also creating beautiful sunrises for someone else, and showing the awesome display of stars to someone else!

What is your favorite part of God's creation? Think about it, He is telling you how much he loves you!

Running On Empty

These past few weeks have been quite rough for me. School has been crazy, and just really time consuming. My mom and i are constantly getting into fights. My mom went in today for eye surgery. She was diagnosed with Glaucoma this year. I'm in this weird time where I'm not sure who my friends are, which is a new weird thing to me. I feel worthless, empty, alone. I'm sure we are all there at some time or another.


But more than anything, I feel like i have lost something.


I have not really lost anything. But in all reality, I have lost everything. I have lost everything. When i made the decision about a year and a half ago to follow Christ, my life was transformed completely. I was suddenly called to change. To live a new life. A life with love and purpose. A life shining with Christ. And to live this way and let all this in, i had to lose a lot. I lost my old way of thinking and reasoning. I lost my old angry and blaming attitude towards life and others. I lost my lying and deceiving. I lost friends. Drinking. Selfishness. Ignorance. Now this turning from my old ways didn't happen over night. It is a slow process, that is still happening...

And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell.  - Matthew 5:30


I began slowly cutting the bad stuff out of my life. There's still some there, and there always will be. But after all this "bad stuff" is gone, i am left almost completely empty. Which i suppose is where this feeling of losing something is coming from...See that is good, very good

Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.  - Matthew 10:39


I have lost my life in order to save it. But lately i have been discovering something that i know, but have been choosing to blatantly ignore. It hit me extra hard tonight at Leadership. It is this: Christ is the bread of life. If we are not filling ourselves with Christ, then we are running on empty, and spiritually starving. This "food" helps us to do other things, like love our friends and family, and pour into their lives. I'm tired of starving. I am so freakin' hungry it's not funny. God will fill me up, and i will overflow with His love. I just need to let him. It amazes me every day how truly awesome God is!

What have you guys lost recently, or even in the past? Are you letting Christ fill you up?

Fall! Fall! Faaaalllll!

I freakin' love the season fall! I have always loved fall, ever since i was really little. Some people say that Spring is better, because in Fall, everything is just dying and ending. Not true! Fall is the beginning of so many things, new school year, new clothes, new friends, new fashions. 

Today i was driving home from school thinking about all the reasons i love fall and here they are!

1. Tree leaves changing colors

2. Beautiful October sunsets (personal fav)

3. Pumpkins, they seem to make their way into every kind of food

4. Hot apple cider

5. Thanksgiving, the most perfect holiday. Friends, family, food, gratitude. What more could you want?

6. Beginning of new TV series'

7. Reading by the fire

8. The Ohio State/Michigan game. Simply the best.

9. Wearing winter hats. The ones with the earflaps, strings, and the little poof on top, ya know?

10. Wearing hoodies and sweaters

11. Birds in that V shape flying north

12. Jumping in leaf piles!

13. Crisp, fresh apples

14. It's the time when my dad breaks out his fantastic Chili recipe!

15. Indian summer - it's October now and we hit 80 degrees the other day!

16. Chilly friday night football games at the high school

17. POWDERPUFF <3

18. Fall fruits and vegetables

19. Halloween. Candy, costumes, haunted houses, pure joy :)

20. Turkeys. heh. heh.

21. The way the fireplace adds that warm glow to the room

22. Caterpillar

23. Hot tea on a chilly morning

24. Bonfires :)

25. The smell that is infused in your hair after the bonfire

26. Hot chocolate

27. Holiday shopping

28. Cuddling under blankets and watching movies

29. Biking/unicycling in the cool evenings

30. Geocaching, its the perfect weather for going on adventures!

31. Real hayrides

32. Not too hot, not too cold

33. The smell of leaves, gardens, and dying grass

34. Calming atmosphere

35. Change.