My feelings written on a McDonald's napkin

I can’t put into words what I’m thinking
Most of the time.
Hanging on the edge, looking out
Over the possibilities and the
Plethora of opportunities that
Exist for my life in its current state.
Lets take a couple steps back now
Examine everything that is
Set out in front of me here.
Something’s telling me I need to
Let my heart win this time,
Yet everything else is saying,
Imagine what would happen if you did.
Now I'm just stuck, with a little over a year
Left to untangle this mess
Of life and love that I'm wrapped up in
Vagueness is settling into the future but
Eventually it all will become clear

you are loved.

You are of so much value. Know you are loved.

My Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you. Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up. Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways. Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image. Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being. Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring. Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived. Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation. Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, 

for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth 

and where you would live. Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb. Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born. Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete 

expression of love. 1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. 1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father. Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love. Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand 

on the seashore. Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you. Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession. Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul. Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things. Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires. Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you 

close to my heart. Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being. Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. 1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. 1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father. Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…Will you be my child? John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you. Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad

Almighty God

Father's Love Letter used by permission Father Heart Communications 
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1 Corinthians 13:4

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

God is love.

Happy Valentines Day! :)

Se...Seee...Sen...SENIOR?!

Senior course request form?! TOO SOON. I am so not ready for this. Not like Eastwood cares, it's due Friday and i still haven't gotten one signature. I still honestly have no idea what i want to do with my senior year, or the rest of my life for that matter. I mean i feel like i was just in preschool making sheep art with cotton balls and toothpicks, and now i have to start looking at colleges? This is crazy. 

One big decision that i can't make is whether i want to do PSO at BGSU again or not. It has been the best experience i could ask for, and i love being on campus. I love the people that you meet at college, hanging out with people before classes, and the lack of drama that exists in college. The last one is my favorite :) But on the other hand, i want to have the best senior year possible, it's my last year and i want to leave my mark at Eastwood. I feel like with PSO i'm not at the school as much, which is weird. Then i just have the decision of the classes i want to take. Which is a whole 'nother obstacle course. 

I don't want to think about my future, i just want it to happen.

Random thoughts from GFT on a lovely Sunday morning :)

1. I am sort of glad i didn't go to church this morning. I've had a lot on my mind and of course sitting there for an hour and a half is just an excuse for daydreaming. Instead i got to have a date with Jesus at Grounds for Thought. It was great to get some things off of my chest :)

2. Theres a guy sitting next to me at grounds that is folding at least 50 large sheets of paper in half. He looks like his name could be Neil. I don't know what he is going to do with them. Currently he is talking fairly loudly on his phone. *turns ipod volume up* haha. I'm actually just sitting here waiting to see what he does with them. He has an exact-o knife and a ruler. I envy the fact that he is eating chocolate covered coffee beans, because they are my favorite coffee related item.

3. I'm listening to Garrison Dale on my Ipod, reminiscing about Work Crew and all the awesome people i met there. I love the song Hope. "Breath of life rush into my lungs, you have broken me down, now you're building me up, and honestly i need to swallow my pride, i've been drawn out of darkness, and into the wonderful light." Looooove it :)

4.  The smell of coffee is making me hungrier by the minute. I don't know what it is about GFT but it's the only place where the strong smell of coffee is acceptable for my nose. But for some unknown reason, it's givin' me tummy the rumblies.

5. Neil the paper folder just caught me staring at him. His fault, he is so intriguing.

6. I just had to relocate because my computer was dying. Now sitting in front of a cute old man who fell asleep reading a Stephen King novel.

7. In 5 minutes i will be leaving to go hang with Johnny Shumay, my childhood bestfriend. Oh how i miss the days of fruity pebbles for dinner and playing king of the trampoline for hours.

Peace out blogger! :)

52 cups of coffee, 52 conversations, in one year

So the other day i ran across this blog about a girl who is celebrating her 22 year of life by drinking 52 cups of coffee. But not just any ol' cup of joe. Every week for a year, she sits down for a cup of coffee and conversation with someone she has never met before. She writes about what she learns from these people along the way. Pretty cool, huh? You never know what a cup of coffee can lead to :)

Check out her blog here: 52 Cups of Coffee